Winter Butterfly (Remaster)

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released July 3, 2017

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Track Name: A. Maya feat. Megurine Luka - Hear Me
I would give my life to burn these
Twisted contracts and save your life
The way you saved mine

I've often told myself
To wake up, but
I'm just so hopelessly
Infatuated with the past
And all of my
Memories now

Dance like the broken shards
Of a fragile
Mirror, and even if you're ready for me to let go,
I never want
These dreams to end, and I
Can't help but hold onto them;
You know I can't
Erase them now

Nismadra
Essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak sai achi tai

Can I really live
In a world where you
Do not exist?

Hear me as I
Lie next to your grave
And speak with you
Until the dawn lays your soul

My purpose has died
With your life.
Please forgive me if
I don't make it -
Make it through this night.

Lead
Me to
Our grave,
Where the flowers
Are dancing
Track Name: A. Maya feat Megurine Luka - Epitaph
Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak sai achi tai

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak sai achi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph.

Lusbur nalentair
Sumak sai achi tai

I let life tear me down
Because I believed in
Forever, and I know it's naive, but I
Still want to believe in
A happy ending for
Us...

Han endbur chey
Dos deyd alda rey
Demvere
Laia heya ou

Eternity -
The cold mornings in which I
Awaken by myself.
I thought that I'd taken my life, but I am alive,
Breathing without you.
Why am I here?
I fear
I've been cursed for this sin of mine.

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak sai achi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph
So that I
Remember...

There is a pain
In this darkness, and
It feels like me.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
This pain is mine.

If I could
Rewind the hands
Of time...

Death, please lift this curse.
I can no longer
Bear to roam this earth without my love.
My suicide
Was in vain.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Cyber Diva - Resignation
She was my
Life, oh she was
My goddess

Some bonds break
With the flick
Of a wrist,
While other bonds
Are more sacred.
This is my letter of resignation:
Please read it well.

If love could be measured in years,
My dear, it'd be eternal,
But I know
That wolves wear sheep fleece
And even Lucifer once was an angel.

You are not whom you claim to be.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
You are not good enough.

You weren't enough.

All you wanted was to reap the
Benefits of my blood and tears.
I know you
Would rather drink your
Own blood than show me that you
Had ever bled.

You are a needle in the hay.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
No...
No...
You are not
Good enough.

You weren't enough.

I built this home
For you and I
Because I thought
That you were willing to be
The foundation
On which it stood,
But I now understand that
You just wanted
A shelter sewn
From the seeds of another's
Labor.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
No...
No...
You are not
Good enough.

You weren't enough.

I know you're acquainted with the
Feeling of pain, yet you're willing
To inflict
It upon another
As long as you, alone, feel
That much better.

You are a wolf in sheep's clothing
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Ruby - Never Saved Me (Unplugged)
My memories are a siren
And I've fallen to her voice
You have me on a leash
And the promise that you'll be waiting
Is the promise that pulls me back into your waters

It feels like I'm dying, but
I've never had a hero to save me

You see me as a reward for the hardships you've imposed upon yourself.
You're so deep in your fantasy that you've lost your grip on reality,
But you're the one who ties me to the anchor and you let me drown.
How do you expect me to call you a hero when you've never saved me?

I know that you don't love me
So save your breath for someone
Who will actually believe in all of your lies
Oh

And yet you've somehow managed to pull me back
Into your murky waters
You promise me the sky,
But you really intend to bind my
Ankles and watch me drown in the sea of what we once were

It feels like I'm dying, but
I've never had a hero to save me

You see me as a reward for the hardships you've imposed upon yourself.
You're so deep in your fantasy that you've lost your grip on reality,
But you're the one who ties me to the anchor and you let me drown.
How do you expect me to call you a hero when you've never saved me?

I'm not a princess
Locked in a stone tower;
I don't need a knight

You see me as a reward for the hardships you've imposed upon yourself.
You're so deep in your fantasy that you've lost your grip on reality,
But you're the one who ties me to the anchor and you let me drown.
How do you expect me to call you a hero when you've never saved me?

All I wanted was for someone
To take my hand and show me
A world without this pain.
The restraints you've given yourself are
Rules in a game that I simply do not have time for

I cannot be your saviour -
No, I'm only human
And perhaps it's time you also gave up your act
Because you can't be my hero
If you are not willing to save me
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Yohioloid and Prima - Imogen
When I first saw her, she
Was alone.
I couldn't say it, but she was so
Alluring as she dried
Her tears and
Shed her skin to become one
With the sea.

I saw her die that day; she
Took her own
Life, and even though I only knew her
For a breath in time, I
Fell in love.
Oh, Imogen, I loved you
And your pain.

Oh, Imogen,
I couldn't save you,
But perhaps it was for the best.
Oh, Imogen.
Imogen.

I've said goodbye to you,
As you've said
To your pain.

Oh.

Please say you hear me.
If I'd only known that
Someone could love me, I would have stopped
Myself from taking
My life, and now I can
Only regret what I have done.

Oh, Imogen,
I couldn't save you,
But perhaps it was for the best.
Oh, Imogen.
Imogen.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Prima and Tonio - Rose Petals
I cannot catch
The rose petals,
Just as my heart
Cannot slow for
'nything but this moment.

You are free, and
By no means an
Object I own.
You are free, and
That is why I love you.

Even if I
Cannot catch the
Falling petals,
I know that the
Passing breeze will graze them.

They will gently
Kiss my warm palm
And then take flight.
I know you will
Leave me, though I love you.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Tonio and Big Al - Trash
If it were possible, I'd share with you
All of these emotions.
If my feelings were data, I'd transfer
All of these memories
From my heart to yours.

But it is impossible
For two humans
To fully understand each other.
The pain I feel is
Something I can
Never share with you, for you do not
Understand because
The things that hurt me are things that don't hurt you.

Oh, it is impossible
For two humans
To fully understand each other.
The pain I feel is
Something I can
Never share with you, for you do not
Understand because
The things that hurt me are things that don't hurt you.

I just wanted you to understand
What it's like to be told that you will never be loved.
How can you not care what other people are saying when
You know that you'll die alone?

And when you know that no one will ever
Truly want you, oh
How do you go 'bout your life when you know that you're
Yesterday's trash, and there you'll rot?

Oh, it is impossible
For two humans
To fully understand each other.
The pain I feel is
Something I can
Never share with you, for you do not
Understand because
The things that hurt me are things that don't hurt you.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Tonio - Monster
The road you walk is paved
With loneliness and broken dreams.
You look to see those you love,
Their backs turned as they leave you.
Oh...

When the tears fall from your eyes,
Their hearts will stop.
But they still hate, and they still fear.
Because they will never understand you.
Their hearts will stop.
Oh, their hearts will stop - stop!
Oh, you know they'll never understand you.

The road you walk is an
Evil one, despite your pure heart.
You can't deny you were born
Of a demon, and those who have
Shut you out were right all along.

But when the tears fall from your eyes,
Their hearts will stop.
But that won't erase all your sins
Because you can never take back murder.
Their hearts will stop,
But that won't erase all your sins
Because you can never take back murder.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Megurine Luka and Prima - Blood and Wine
I want to hear you say that you love me, oh -
The only thing that I long for.
Ah, words that taste of blood -
Words that taste of wine.

How can I love you
But hate you
All the same?
If the knife falls
On you,
Let it fall on me.

Cut me open and tell me you
Hate me.
All this pain reminds me that I'm alive
And that I still love you.

It feels so good -

The way you
Take my soul,
Drinking from my life
'Til I die
In your place.

One day, I'll wake up
But for now,
I will sleep.
So take my life,
Take my pain -
Free me from your name.

Words that taste of blood -
Words that taste of wine.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Daina and Cyber Diva - Haunt Me
Once upon a time, you stood beside me
And protected me from myself.
But you've left me behind,
Crossing worlds, where I can't reach you.

I know I don't deserve you,
But letting go
Is just so hard.

Every piece of me is numb,
Yet I feel
Every drop of pain as violently
As I'd felt the first time.

Lead me back to your bed, where I
Can finally rest.
Close my eyes -
I've forseen the end

With each breath I take,
Your voice haunts me,
Taunts me.
This pain is going to overflow and pour
Out of me

Anniversaries and birthdays -
Voices, faces -
I wish
They meant nothing, but they're burned into me as
Though they're a lifetime of sins and I am
Awaiting judgment.

Wherever I turn, you are
Always there -
The things
You loved and all the things that you had hated -
They dictate -

They dictate my very being.
I am sorry that I
Couldn't be the one; you know that I tried.

All that I had ever wanted
Was for you to love me too.

With every breath that I take,
Your voice haunts
Me, haunts me, haunts me, haunts me.
The desire to hear you
Again is the only thing I
Can feel, and I can say
I would give anything to run

Back into your arms and say
That I was the one who was wrong,

But I know that's not true;
You were the one
Who was in the wrong.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Cyber Diva - The Bottom of the Lake
Do you remember the
Vow we made
Many years ago
In the past that we have left behind?

We promised to be together
Until the very end -
We were happy.

Our stems were
Once intertwined, but
The flowers had budded
Miles apart.

I opened up to you
And gave you a part of my soul -
All you can say
Is that you thought
That you know me, but you weren't able to -
You couldn't see that

That was me, and
This is me.

I sometimes fall apart
But that doesn't make me
Suicidal.
You will never understand
That flowers do not flourish
Without the rain.
I know that you'll -
You'll never understand that.
But that doesn't change
A single damn thing.

Don't say that my laughter
Wasn't real; you know I never
Faked anything.
But sometimes I had lost
Myself in whom you wanted me
To be, but I know

(That) In the dark, I know
(Was me, and this) Who I truly am.
(Is me) I know who I am.

All of my existence,
I've walked this barren path.
This is the life I was given,
And I can't just cast it away
Because you
Want me to be more like you.
You are caging me

(You're not always) I didn't want to
(Right) Give myself up
(Not always right) Because you couldn't get that I

Sometimes fall apart,
But that doesn't mean I'm
Suicidal.
You will never understand
That people cannot blossom
Without hardships.
I know that you'll -
You'll never understand me.
And that is what will
Divide you and

I won't survive much longer
If you keep suffocating me.
Let me drown in this lake,
For when I reach the bottom,
I'll see the real me.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Cyber Diva - The Charlatan
Behind every smile is a broken mirror
In which we find the crying
Reflection of ourselves,
But what is now left of this smile I feign?
Nothing but you, and you wear
It like it gives
You pleasure.

But I see
You're rotting
Inside.

You have deceived all of the people who believe
In your web of lies
And they'll forsake you once they see through
Your guise.

You talk like me
And you laugh like me -
Go ahead and hide your cowardly self inside
Of my skin, for I
Still know what is real and what is
Fake

Release your dove -
Pretend you're
At peace
When you want war.

How can I
Remain neutral
When you provoke
Me and
Pretend
As though you aren't just the
Imitation of a person
You saw as blithe?

All this time, you were better
Than me, and yet
You can't
Stand to
Face yourself, so rotten -
Hide it, become someone else.

Say you want war.

I will not
Remain neutral
When you kill me,
Screw me,
And try
To pin all the blame on
Everyone else; you save yourself
And fuck the rest.

All this time, you were greater
Than me, yet you
Persist
In veiling whom you truly are;
Hide it, pretend that you're me