Perspective: A Collection of Demos, B Sides, Acoustic Versions, and Remasters

by A. Maya

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released July 3, 2015

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Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Don't Need You Anymore (demo)
All the pain I tried to bury -
Late at night, it comes back
And tries to pull me under.
The taste of your concept -
Your transient embrace -
Yet I can't seem to want you back.

I will survive on my own,
I will face the future without you.
All I wanted to say was that I'm doing fine
And I don't need you
Anymore.

How do you say goodbye to the
Only person who has
Ever loved you and how
Do you piece yourself
Back together when all
That you have are broken
Remnants of unhappy memories?

I will survive on my own,
I will face the future without you.
All I wanted to say was that I'm doing fine
And I don't need you
Anymore.

The days have been passing me by;
It's been two months now and
I'm slowly recovering
From the trauma you caused.
But now I'm finally
Free from the toxic love
I tried to save for ten painful years.

I will survive on my own,
I will face the future without you.
All I wanted to say was that I'm doing fine
And I don't need you
Anymore.

I'm calling just to tell
You that I'm doing fine on my own.
I haven't hurt myself since the day you
Left me, and I'm just calling
To let you know that I've finally
Looked myself in the mirror, and for the
First time, I didn't cry.
It's been two whole months and I can say -
I can say that I'm better without you;
I'm free.

I am going to survive
On my own.
I'm calling just to say
That I don't need you.
I'm calling to tell you
I don't need you.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - The Fountain (B side)
I know that you're hurting.
I can't deny that you're dying -
Your pain, it fills me just as much.

But I cannot do a single thing for you;
All that I can do is stand and watch as you
Die again.

I find that I wish I could cure all your insecurities
And dry away the tears that are falling from the face that I'd
Like to see smile,
But sorrow's a fountain
From which new life springs, and even
Scars can become beautiful.

I can't help but wish that I could mend all of
Your wounds and show you to look pain in the face.
I want to make you feel as though you even
Want to do it again and become invincible.

Can't you see how much
You are worth to me?
Beyond the pain you feel right now, there is a luscious
Garden that you've yet to see.

You've yet to see...

Every fall enables a greater flight.
I hope you'll see that a greater
Happiness is waiting
For you to find it.

I find that I wish I could cure all your insecurities
And dry away the tears that are falling from the face that I'd
Like to see smile,
But sorrow's a fountain
From which new life springs, and even
Scars can become beautiful.

You aren't alone, no matter how dark it may seem;
I will show you the fountain
That is on the other side of the pain.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi and SONiKA - Hollow (demo)
How many times have I wandered down
This empty street paved in my mind?
All the houses are so empty,
Their lights turned off -
This ghost town is just so hollow.
Oh, Hollow, hollow.
Oh...

Oh, I
Pick up the shards
Of the person
I used to be, oh.
Now I am so hollow.

I am sinking
In the black river
All the things that we
Could've been drown with me

The "me" in all of my memories
Is different than the "me" of now.
Which one is real?
Which one is fake?
Even if I find the answer,
I don't think it will bring me peace
'Cause I'm hollow,
Without a soul.

All of these things
That we could've been
Are sinking with me -
You can't hear our screams.

And I
Pick up the shards
Of the person
I used to be, oh.
Now I am so hollow.

I need you
But you've abandoned me, oh.
You've won this war and
You will win this war.
You were always the one who was
Much better than me,
Toying with all of my
Insecurities, oh why
Don't you look at me
And see the hollow
Person that I have become? Oh!

Oh, I
Pick up the shards
Of the person
I used to be, oh.
Now I am so hollow.

Now I am so hollow.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi and Prima - Blood and Wine (demo)
I want to hear you say that you love me, oh -
The only thing that I long for.
Ah, words that taste of blood -
Words that taste of wine.

Cut me open and tell me you
Hate me.
All this pain reminds me that I'm alive
And that I still love you.

It feels so good

Words that taste of blood -
Words that taste of wine.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi and SONiKA - Bleed Black (B side)
All these words lie broken on the floor -
All these letters lie scattered across the tile.
If I were you, these walls
Would be painted in color, but you believe me to be a
Cynic so I bleed -
Yeah, I bleed black.
You believe me to be a cynic so I bleed black.
Black, black, black.

My voice -
Void of any real happiness.
I tried to ignore the voice within me, but
Maybe it was right all along.
Oh, you
Ignore me as I suffocate.
Your ideals are caging me, caging me, oh!
I wish you loved me,
But how you could you?;

Nobody could ever love a void -
All I see is black and white.

My voice - // All these words lie broken on the floor -
Void of any real happiness. // All these letters lie scattered across the tile.
I tried to ignore the voice within me, but
Maybe it was right all along. // If I were you, these walls
Oh, you // Would be painted in color, but you believe me to be a
Ignore me as I suffocate. // Cynic so I bleed -
Your ideals are caging me, caging me, oh!
I wish you loved me, // Yeah, I bleed black.
But how you could you? // You believe me to be a cynic so I bleed black.
Black, black, black.

I'm a cynic: I bleed black

If the world told me no,
And you were the only one who said yes, this world
Would be in color, but you think me to be a cynic so I bleed black.
If you told me yes, I would carry on, but
You believe me to be a cynic so I bleed black
Track Name: A. Maya feat. SONiKA - Parting From You (demo)
You asked me why I had fallen in love with you -
Now I know:
Your smile warms
Me and I always lose control whenever I hear your angelic voice
And you have
Unbound me from
All of my chains.

But no one knows the pain that
Lies beneath the
Surface of this affair.
It all seemed so
Perfect; you told me forever

And that is why I can't
Ever let you go.
If you won't come back to me,
Then I will make it so that you can't ever leave.
I'll just take your life right here and join you in eternal rest.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi - Awake (demo)
In the night,
He consumes my dreams.
His voice beckons for me
And I meet with him
In the recesses
Of my nightmares.

He holds me tight,
Tells me I'm alright.
I'm safe in his arms.
He says he'll protect me.

He is the demon that keeps
Me awake.
He is the monster that watches me sleep.
He is the hunter and I see that I'm his prey.

But he is
The only one
Who will
Ever
Love me.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - To Save Him (B side)
Calling out to me, memories
Creeping back to tell me
What must be done.

Sensations swim beneath my skin,
Thoughts that are not mine -
This is not my body.

Immortality is a heavy weight -
A sin that we cannot erase.
If you are not willing to burn
For anything less than saving his broken heart,
Then how can you claim
That you truly are in love with him?

I have seen the end just so that
He could smile again -
What have you done?

Stare in the mirror,
Pity yourself.
I will save him while you
Drown in all your self-pity.

Haunted by all the
Shadows of my past, I reach
Out for him, and he turns me away for you -
What do you have that I do not?
I'm the one had suffered,
But he wants you, despite
All that I have gone through.
What's wrong with me?

I danced with the devil himself
Just to save him from your cold hands.
How can you say he is your other half when
You can't even face yourself?
You know it hurts him.

Until you've smelled the
Burning of flesh and
Watched the melting of
Your kin's face, you cannot
Say that you
Have walked in my shoes.
You cannot say that you love him too.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Orange (demo)
Turn around,
Leave me where I stand.
Abandon me and watch me fall
To pieces.

Everyone must want him;
He's the teenage dream: a skater boy
With no direction

But I hate him:
He's a thief.

I have become one with
Pain and envy, for I watch him take
Her away from me.
Every day, he whispers of
Love and I die as she's torn away
From me.

He destroys
Her life
And she pretends that it's just a lie.

She is the seed in an orange
(Peel the skin)
She is a tiny seed,
Guarded by the rind.
She cannot see,
She will not see
(Use your eyes)
She looks away from the truth, but
That doesn't change the
Facts -
It won't change the facts.

In her rind,
She remains oblivious to the climate

Before the crowd, he says
That he'll die for you, but how can you
Believe him after
He's said behind closed doors that
He will not take your hand in marriage?
How can you believe

He'll die for you
When he admits that he's just fooling around?

I am drowning in your
Voice, and I swear that it's cutting me
Until there isn't
An inch of me that hasn't
Bled in your name, but I only
Want to let go of you

And he destroys
Your life,
But I don't even care anymore

Hon., you're the seed in an orange
(Peel the skin)
You're just a tiny seed,
Guarded by the rind.
Do you realize
You cannot see?
(No...)
You can look away from the truth,
But it won't change the
Facts;
He's still using you

In your rind,
You remain oblivious to the climate

And now she's reaching for me -
I tell her to leave;
She chose him over me and I refuse to
Be her pawn
I won't allow her to love me
Only when he
Lies in bed, touching someone else
I will not

Be her crutch -
My feelings aren't toys, but what does she care?

She is the seed in an orange
(Peel the skin)
Peel off the skin
And expose
Her so that
she can see -
Oh, she now sees
(Now you see)
Caught in the climate, she now sees
That he doesn't love her.

Love, I am now gone
And it is
All your fault, and you can only blame yourself
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna and Prima - Hear Me (demo)
I would give my life to burn these
Twisted contracts and save
Your life
The way you saved mine

I've often told myself
To wake up, but
I'm just so hopelessly
Infatuated with the past,
And all of my
Memories now

Dance like the broken shards
Of a fragile mirror, and
Even if you're ready for me to let go,
I never want
These dreams to end, and I
Can't help but hold on to them.
You know I can't erase them now.

I'm crying -
Can anyone hear me?
Someone please tell me
That it's all in my head.

Can I really live
In a world where you
Do not exist?

Hear me as I
Lie next to your grave
And speak with you
Until the dawn lays you to
Rest.

My soul has died
With yours.
Please forgive me if
I don't make it -
Make it through this night.
Track Name: A. Maya (feat. Avanna and Prima) - Epitaph (demo)
Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph.

Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

I was caught in this game
Because I believed in
Forever, and I know it's naive, but I
Still want to believe in
A happy ending for
Us...

Han endbur chey
Dos deyd alda rey
Demvere
Laia heyaou

Eternity -
The cold mornings in which I
Awaken by myself.
It feels as though a part
Of me is missing, and
It feels as though I'm
Forgetting a vital
Piece to my identity

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph so that
I remember...

There is a pain in this darkness and
It feels like me.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
It must be mine...

This pain is mine...

Shake me from the grave -
I know you're there;
I can feel you.
I have been wakened
By your epitaph.
I remember...

Forever will
I be bound
To this earth,
Forced to wander an
Eternity without you.

This is the
Punishment I'd
Been dealt
For taking my
Own life on the night of
Your death.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna and Prima - Resignation (demo)
Some bonds break
With the flick
Of a wrist,
While other bonds
Are more sacred.
This is my letter of resignation:
Please read it well.

If love could be measured in years,
My dear, it'd be eternal,
But I know
That wolves wear sheep fleece
And even Lucifer once was an angel.

You are not whom you claim to be.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
You are not good enough.

You weren't enough.

All you wanted was to reap the
Benefits of my blood and tears.
I know you
Would rather drink your
Own blood than show me that you
Had ever bled.

You are a needle in the hay.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
No...
No...
You are not
Good enough.

You weren't enough.

I built this home
For you and I
Because I thought
That you were willing to be
The foundation
On which it stood,
But I now understand that
You just wanted
A shelter sewn
From the seeds of another's
Labor.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
No...
No...
You are not
Good enough.

You weren't enough.

I know you're acquainted with the
Feeling of pain, yet you're willing
To inflict
It upon another
As long as you, alone, feel
That much better.

You are a wolf in sheep's clothing
Track Name: A. Maya (feat. Avanna and Prima) - The Bottom of the Lake (demo)
Do you remember the
Vow we made
Many years ago
In the past that we have left behind?

We promised to be together
Until the very end -
We were happy.

Our stems were
Once intertwined, but
The flowers had budded
Miles apart.

I opened up to you
And gave you a part of my soul -
All you can say
Is that you thought
That you know me, but you weren't able to -
You couldn't see that

That was me, and
This is me.

I sometimes fall apart
But that doesn't make me
Suicidal.
You will never understand
That flowers do not flourish
Without the rain.
I know that you'll -
You'll never understand that.
But that doesn't change
A single damn thing.

Don't say that my laughter
Wasn't real; you know I never
Faked anything.
But sometimes I had lost
Myself in whom you wanted me
To be, but I know

(That) In the dark, I know
(Was me, and this) Who I truly am.
(Is me) I know who I am.

All of my existence,
I've walked this barren path.
This is the life I was given,
And I can't just cast it away
Because you
Want me to be more like you.
You are caging me

(You're not always) I didn't want to
(Right) Give myself up
(Not always right) Because you couldn't get that I

Sometimes fall apart,
But that doesn't mean I'm
Suicidal.
You will never understand
That people cannot blossom
Without hardships.
I know that you'll -
You'll never understand me.
And that is what will
Divide you and

I won't survive much longer
If you keep suffocating me.
Let me drown in this lake,
For when I reach the bottom,
I'll see the real me.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Prima - The Charlatan (demo)
Behind every smile is a broken mirror
In which we find the crying
Reflection of ourselves,
But what is now left of this smile I feign?
Nothing but you, and you wear
It like it gives
You pleasure.

But I see
You're rotting
Inside.

You have deceived all of the people who believe
In your web of lies
And they'll forsake you once they see through
Your guise.

You talk like me
And you laugh like me -
Go ahead and hide your cowardly self inside
Of my skin, for I
Still know what is real and what is
Fake

Release your dove -
Pretend you're
At peace
When you want war.

How can I
Remain neutral
When you provoke
Me and
Pretend
As though you aren't just the
Imitation of a person
You saw as blithe?

All this time, you were better
Than me, and yet
You can't
Stand to
Face yourself, so rotten -
Hide it, become someone else.

Say you want war.

I will not
Remain neutral
When you kill me,
Screw me,
And try
To pin all the blame on
Everyone else; you save yourself
And fuck the rest.

All this time, you were greater
Than me, yet you
Persist
In veiling whom you truly are;
Hide it, pretend that you're me
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Princess (demo)
Entsheiden Sie sich!
Lieben Sie mich oder
Hassen Sie mich!

Forever will
This day be
Burned into my mind -
An ancient torture
That befits the
Daughter of the
Queen who usurped her father's throne.

Forever will
Your poison freeze
My blood like a snake's venom.
You owned my heart
And abused my
Faith in you;
It shatters like the million
Shards of a broken mirror.

I tried to mend these wounds.

You tried to save me
With a hundred lies.
Your venom -
The only words I hear,
The only words you
Speak.
Lies.
The princess of lies.

Princess,
Forever will
You tear me down
And convince me that you are
Innocent, and I'm
The one who has
Gone mad,
But if you want to feign
That you're saving

Me, well I guess,
You can pretend it doesn't
Matter that you can't
Bring back a life
Once it has crossed the
River, but princess, if I were
To reach for you,
You'd just tear off my -

You would just tear off my fingers.

You tried to save me
With a hundred lies.
Your venom -
The only words I hear,
The only words you
Speak.
Lies.
The princess of lies.

Princess,
You and your queen -
Hypocrites
Behind
Charicature masks.
Aber
Noch immer liebe ich dich.

Princess, you should know -
Prinzessin, Sie sind
Wie Ihre
Mutter.
Princess, you should know
That the apple doesn't fall far -
Doesn't fall far
From the tree.

The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

You tried to save me
With a hundred lies.
Your venom -
The only words I hear,
The only words you
Speak.
Lies.
The princess of a hundred
Lies.

Health upon the queen!
Long live the blood-thirsty queen!

Forever will
You try to kill me
And say that you did
It to save me.
Ich brauch deine
Leere Versprechungen nicht.
Lügen -
Die Prinzessin der Lügen.

Princess,
Forever will your
Legacy
Live on
Inside of me.
Ich werd dich für
Immer lieben.

Long live the princess!
Lang lebe die Prinzessin -
Meine Prinzessin
Der Lügen.

Princess, you should know
That the apple doesn't fall far -
Doesn't fall far
From the tree.

The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Hear Me (Spring Ver.)
I would give my life to burn these
Twisted contracts and save
Your life
The way you saved mine

I've often told myself
To wake up, but
I'm just so hopelessly
Infatuated with the past,
And all of my
Memories now

Dance like the broken shards
Of a fragile mirror, and
Even if you're ready for me to let go,
I never want
These dreams to end, and I
Can't help but hold on to them.
You know I can't erase them now.

Nismadra
Essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak sai achi tai

Can I really live
In a world where you
Do not exist?

Hear me as I
Lie next to your grave
And speak with you
'Til the dawn lays you to rest.

My soul has died
With yours.
Please forgive me if
I don't make it -
Make it through this night.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Epitaph (Spring Ver.)
Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph.

Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

I was caught in this game
Because I believed in
Forever, and I know it's naive, but I
Still want to believe in
A happy ending for
Us...

Han endbur chey
Dos deyd alda rey
Demvere
Laia heyaou

Eternity -
The cold mornings in which I
Awaken by myself.
It feels as though a part
Of me is missing, and
It feels as though I'm
Forgetting a vital
Piece to my identity

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph so that
I remember...

There is a pain
In this darkness, and
It feels like me.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
This pain is mine.

If I could
Rewind the hands
Of time...

Death, please lift this curse.
I can no longer
Bear to roam this earth without my love.
My suicide
Was in vain.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Always Loved You (Spring Ver.)
I am drowning
In a sea that doesn't exist.
I am falling into the deepest void -
Falling to my death.

I was crying
Because I wanted to be saved.
Your promises were lies that became the
Current that pulled me under.

I'm dying alone

I know it's wrong to love you
I'm fucked that I care -
Fucked that I care about you

All your lies
Were the tiny shards that built a
Mirror of deceit
And that's what made it feel -
That's what made it feel so real, so
Very real

I need you
You're the only reason that I am
Living; you taught me that I
Meant something
Without you, I am nothing

I know it's wrong to love you
I'm fucked that I care -
Fucked that I care about you

All your lies
Were the tiny shards that built a
Mirror of deceit
And that's what made it feel -
That's what made it feel so real, so
Very real

I have always
Loved you, and you know I'll continue
To love you until the world falls apart
You were my only happiness,
And now that you're gone...

I have no reason for living
Your currents have pulled me under
And I see me for who I am:

Someone who is worthless
And someone who had never
Deserved you in the first place
I wanted you to
Be proud of me
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi - The Bottom of the Lake (Spring Ver.)
Do you remember the
Vow we made
Many years ago
In the past that we have left behind?

We promised to be together
Until the very end -
We were happy.

Our stems were
Once intertwined, but
The flowers had budded
Miles apart.

I opened up to you
And gave you a part of my soul -
All you can say
Is that you thought
That you know me, but you weren't able to -
You couldn't see that

That was me, and
This is me.

I sometimes fall apart
But that doesn't make me
Suicidal.
You will never understand
That flowers do not flourish
Without the rain.
I know that you'll -
You'll never understand that.
But that doesn't change
A single damn thing.

Don't say that my laughter
Wasn't real; you know I never
Faked anything.
But sometimes I had lost
Myself in whom you wanted me
To be, but I know

(That) In the dark, I know
(Was me, and this) Who I truly am.
(Is me) I know who I am.

All of my existence,
I've walked this barren path.
This is the life I was given,
And I can't just cast it away
Because you
Want me to be more like you.
You are caging me

(You're not always) I didn't want to
(Right) Give myself up
(Not always right) Because you couldn't get that I

Sometimes fall apart,
But that doesn't mean I'm
Suicidal.
You will never understand
That people cannot blossom
Without hardships.
I know that you'll -
You'll never understand me.
And that is what will
Divide you and

I won't survive much longer
If you keep suffocating me.
Let me drown in this lake,
For when I reach the bottom,
I'll see the real me.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Abuse Me (Acoustic Ver.)
All of the people who love you
Are disposable
Because they are not him.
He is all you want and he is
All that you

Need, for he is your sun, your stars -
Your moon, your sky.
You let him become the
Meaning of your entire life.

Though he will
Someday burn you

Use me like a rug,
Use me like a whore.
I won't be here when he
Spits on you, cheats on you, leaves you for dead.
Abuse me now, while I'm here
'Cause I'm
Running out of reasons
To stay

I didn't want to lose you, but
I'm letting go;
Can't keep covering these
Scars, pretending as though you had
Never broke
My heart, and can't keep letting you
Piece me together
So that you can just break
Me apart all over again

Oh, abuse
Me while I am still here with you.
You're pushing me to
The edge, and once I'm gone,
You will be all alone, alone.

All this pain
Will make me indestructible
So go ahead:
Strike me if you want to.
I don't care anymore; I am
Over you now

Though he will
Someday burn you

Use me like a rug,
Use me like a whore.
I won't be here when he
Spits on you, cheats on you, leaves you for dead.
Abuse me now, while I'm here
'Cause I'm
Running out of reasons
To stay

You pissed on my heart and laughed as
You walked away.
I hope that when he throws
You off your throne, the pain will rot
Your heart and
You'll be left to no longer breathe,
As you've done to me.
I have no sympathy
For someone who uses others.
Fuck your abuse.

Then
Why does it hurt to see you broken?
You killed me and then walked away
So how can I hate you
But feel so torn
To watch you fade away?
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Hear Me & Epitaph (Acoustic Ver.)
I would give my life to burn these
Twisted contracts and save
Your life
The way you saved mine

I've often told myself
To wake up, but
I'm just so hopelessly
Infatuated with the past,
And all of my
Memories now

Dance like the broken shards
Of a fragile mirror, and
Even if you're ready for me to let go,
I never want
These dreams to end, and I
Can't help but hold on to them.
You know I can't erase them now.

Can I really live
In a world where you
Do not exist?

Hear me as I
Lie next to your grave
And speak with you
'Til the dawn lays you to rest.

My soul has died
With yours.
Please forgive me if
I don't make it -
Make it through this night.

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph.

Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

I let life tear me down
Because I believed in
Forever, and I know it's naive, but I
Still want to believe in
A happy ending for
Us...

Han endbur chey
Dos deyd alda rey
Demvere
Laia heyaou

Eternity -
The cold mornings in which I
Awaken by myself.
I thought that I'd taken my life, but I am alive -
Breathing without you.
Why am I here?
I fear
I've been cursed for this sin of mine.

Nismadra essais ha delgar ni
Lusbur nalentair
Sumak saiachi tai

This grave I sit upon -
Dare I recite the name?
Read me his epitaph so that
I remember...

There is a pain
In this darkness, and
It feels like me.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
It must be mine.
This pain is mine.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Little Bird (Piano Ver.)
What cages you here?
Little bird, I set you free.
I moved on,
Shed my skin, but you're still living in the past,
Writhing in all your self-indulgent shit.

You never
Were the goddess you built yourself to be.

Say I was bitter, but I was the one who raised you
On a pedestal,
Loved you like no other.

Little whore, I set you free.
I stopped crying over all of your lies.
I thought it was over -
God, I thought you were done.
But every single time you
Open your mouth, bullshit and lies fall out.
Yeah, every time you speak
All I hear is bullshit and lies.

Go ahead -
Say what you want, but who buried her
Insecurities in the sleazy men whom
She knew just wanted to fuck her?

Make yourself the hero if that's what you jack off to -
Yeah, if that's what you get off to.

Little whore, I set you free.
I stopped crying over all of your lies.
I thought it was over -
God, I thought you were done.
But every single time you
Open your mouth, bullshit and lies fall out.
Yeah, every time you speak
All I hear is bullshit and lies.

Say what you want, but no one will ever love you the way I did;
Despite your bullshit, I was the one who forgave you.
Keep talking shit, little whore.
Keep talking shit.

Fuck you!

Little whore, I set you free.
I stopped crying over all of your lies.
I thought it was over -
God, I thought you were done.
But every single time you
Open your mouth, bullshit and lies fall out.
Yeah, every time you speak
All I hear is bullshit and lies.

I loved you, but
You took advantage of me and feel nothing.
Keep writhing in shit, little whore.
Little whore.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Leave the Cage (Piano Ver.)
Your words - inconsistent,
Changing ends of the
Spectrum before I can say a thing.
This relationship is a house made up of cards.

Breaking up means goodbye;
What you mean's goodnight,
And the more you break my heart,
The more likely you'll be cut by all of the shards.

What do you want from me?
You told me to be free
So long as I don't
Leave the cage,
Don't leave the cage.
Leave the cage,
Don't leave the cage.

You say you love me,
But I know I'm just the object of your lust.
Your wants have always come before my needs
So this time
I will love me.

I wanted to be
Your only love because I've been beside you
Despite the hell you have put me through,
But she's the one
Basking in your warmth.

What do you want from me?
You told me to be free
So long as I don't
Leave the cage,
Don't leave the cage.
Leave the cage,
Don't leave the cage.

I know I'm only
A single drop in an ocean of people,
And even so, I just wanted someone
To say I was important.

But he was always
So preoccupied with his own existence;
He stayed because I had worshipped him.
And even though he didn't
Love me, I had convinced

Myself that it was
Okay because at least it was
Better than being alone.

No!

It's not better than all this abuse;
His flippant "I love you"
Isn't worth the million tears I've cried in his name.

I'm about to burst, but he can't see -
No, he can't see past his
Desires and regard me as human, human.
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi - Resignation (Spring Ver.)
She was my
Life, oh she was
My goddess

I tried so
Hard for you,
And you stabbed
Me in the back -
Left me bleeding.
So this is the letter that I wrote you:
Please read it well

If love could be measured in years,
My dear, it'd be eternal,
But I know
That wolves wear sheep fleece
And even Lucifer once was an angel.

You are not whom you claim to be.

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
You are not good enough.

You weren't enough.

All you wanted was to reap the
Benefits of my blood and tears.
I know you
Would rather drink your
Own blood than show me that you
Had ever bled.

You are a needle in the hay.

I don't need your excuses -
Not this time

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
No...
No...
You are not
Good enough.

You weren't enough.

I built this home
For you and I
Because I thought
That you were willing to be
The foundation
On which it stood,
But I now understand that
You just wanted
A shelter sewn
From the seeds of another's
Labor.

I don't need your excuses -
Not this time

What is it you hope to achieve?
How long will you survive with your
Inflated pride, your hubris mind?
Did you really think you'd break the cycle?
No...
No...
No...
You are not
Good enough.

You weren't enough.

I know you're acquainted with the
Feeling of pain, yet you're willing
To inflict
It upon another
As long as you, alone, feel
That much better.

You are a wolf in sheep's clothing
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Gumi - The Charlatan (Spring Ver.)
Behind every smile is a broken mirror
In which we find the crying
Reflection of ourselves,
But what is now left of this smile I feign?
Nothing but you, and you wear
It like it gives
You pleasure.

But I see
You're rotting
Inside.

You have deceived all of the people who believe
In your web of lies
And they'll forsake you once they see through
Your guise.

You talk like me
And you laugh like me -
Go ahead and hide your cowardly self inside
Of my skin, for I
Still know what is real and what is
Fake

Release your dove -
Pretend you're
At peace
When you want war.

How can I
Remain neutral
When you provoke
Me and
Pretend
As though you aren't just the
Imitation of a person
You saw as blithe?

All this time, you were better
Than me, and yet
You can't
Stand to
Face yourself, so rotten -
Hide it, become someone else.

Say you want war.

I will not
Remain neutral
When you kill me,
Screw me,
And try
To pin all the blame on
Everyone else; you save yourself
And fuck the rest.

All this time, you were greater
Than me, yet you
Persist
In veiling whom you truly are;
Hide it, pretend that you're me