Candles

by A. Maya

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released January 3, 2015

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Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Orange
Turn around,
Leave me where I stand.
Abandon me and watch me fall
To pieces.

"Everyone must want him,"
But what kind of mentality is
That but insecure?

Well, I hate him;
He's a tool.

I have become one with
Pain and envy, for I watch him take
Her away from me.
Every day, he whispers of
Love and I die as she's torn away
From me.

He destroys
Her life
And she pretends that it's just a lie.

She is the seed in an orange
(Peel the skin)
She is a tiny seed,
Guarded by the rind.
She cannot see,
She will not see
(Use your eyes)
She looks away from the truth, but
That doesn't change the
Facts -
It won't change the facts.

In her rind,
She remains oblivious to the climate

Before the crowd, he says
That he'll die for you, but how can you
Believe him after
He's said behind closed doors that
He only wants you when you're not his.
How can you believe

He'll die for you
When he admits that he's just fooling around?

I am drowning in your
Voice, and I swear that it's cutting me
Until there isn't
An inch of me that hasn't
Bled in your name, but I only
Want to let go of you

And he destroys
Your life,
But I don't even care anymore

Hon., you're the seed in an orange
(Peel the skin)
You're just a tiny seed,
Guarded by the rind.
Do you realize
You cannot see?
(No...)
You can look away from the truth,
But it won't change the
Facts;
He's still using you

In your rind,
You remain oblivious to the climate

And now she's reaching for me -
I tell her to leave;
She chose him over me and I refuse to
Be her pawn
I won't allow her to love me
Only when he
Lies in bed, touching someone else
I will not

Be her crutch -
I'm not her fucking plaything; I'm done with her, oh

She is the seed in an orange
(Peel the skin)
Peel off the skin
And expose
Her so that
she can see -
Oh, she now sees
(Now you see)
Caught in the climate, she now sees
That he never gave
A shit

Love, I am now gone
And it is
All your fault, and you can only blame yourself
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Always Loved You
I am drowning
In a sea that doesn't exist.
I am falling into the deepest void -
Falling to my death.

I was crying
Because I wanted to be saved.
Your promises were lies that became the
Current that pulled me under.

I'm dying alone

I know it's wrong to love you
I'm fucked that I care -
Fucked that I care about you

All your lies
Were the tiny shards that built a
Mirror of deceit
And that's what made it feel -
That's what made it feel so real, so
Very real

I need you
You're the only reason that I am
Living; you taught me that I
Meant something
Without you, I am nothing

I know it's wrong to love you
I'm fucked that I care -
Fucked that I care about you

All your lies
Were the tiny shards that built a
Mirror of deceit
And that's what made it feel -
That's what made it feel so real, so
Very real

I have always
Loved you, and you know I'll continue
To love you until the world falls apart
You were my only happiness,
And now that you're gone...

I have no reason for living
Your currents have pulled me under
And I see me for who I am:

Someone who is worthless
And someone who had never
Deserved you in the first place
I wanted you to
Be proud of me
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Abuse Me
All of the people who love you
Are disposable
Because they are not him.
He is all you want and he is
All that you

Need, for he is your sun, your stars -
Your moon, your sky.
You let him become the
Meaning of your entire life.

You burn your bridges,
Though he will
Someday burn you

Use me like a rug,
Use me like a whore.
I won't be here when he
Spits on you, cheats on you, leaves you for dead.
Abuse me now, while I'm here
'Cause I'm
Running out of reasons
To stay

I didn't want to lose you, but
I'm letting go;
Can't keep covering these
Scars, pretending as though you had
Never broke
My heart, and can't keep letting you
Piece me together
So that you can just break
Me apart all over again

Oh, abuse
Me while I am still here with you.
You're pushing me to
The edge, and once I'm gone,
You will be all alone, alone.

All this pain
Will make me indestructible
So go ahead:
Strike me if you want to.
I don't care anymore; I am
Over you now

How long will it take for you
To see what you've become?
I drank from your promises,
Not knowing that they were lies.
Oh, I was in denial.

You burn your bridges,
Though he will
Someday burn you

Use me like a rug,
Use me like a whore.
I won't be here when he
Spits on you, cheats on you, leaves you for dead.
Abuse me now, while I'm here
'Cause I'm
Running out of reasons
To stay

You pissed on my heart and laughed as
You walked away.
I hope that when he throws
You off your throne, the pain will rot
Your heart and
You'll be left to no longer breathe,
As you've done to me.
I have no sympathy
For someone who uses others.
Fuck your abuse.

Then
Why does it hurt to see you broken?
You killed me and then walked away
So how can I hate you
But feel so torn
To watch you fade away?
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Satisfaction
Isn't it enough that you make me happy?
No...
It is never enough;
You want these things that I
Cannot give
You want me to take the fall for your sins

And I will fall...

Chant your name
Whenever I'm afraid and imagine you
Telling me that I'm okay,
But I am
Alone, save for the shadows -
Hallucinate
I beg someone save me but I'm
(I'm alone)

Hold my hand when you feel at ease,
Leave me once the shadows arise
You never loved me; I couldn't
Give you what you wanted

But

Still, I want you
And I wanted to be
Your happiness
And your
Beginning and your end -
I just
Wanted you to love me the way I loved you
Just tell me that you love me,
But I know
I never meant a thing, now hallucinate
That you'll save me, save me, save me, save me

I wanted you to love me
The way I loved you...

Isn't it enough that you make me happy?
No...

It is never enough
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Prima - Soulmate
I want to capture
The words that I can't say
I wish you could see
How much you mean to me

I want you to trust
Me and extend your heart out;
I want to protect
It from all the world's pain

I want you
To see how
Much you mean
To me

I don't want
You to go
And leave me
All alone

I will always be here,
Waiting for you
Until the end of time
I'll be here with my arms
Open to you,
Even if you don't love
Me too

I watch this sunset
Alone, wondering if you're with
Her
I know I'll never
Compare to the love of your life -

Your soulmate

I bet you
Never miss
Me because
I never meant a
Thing to you -
Regardless,
My heart is
Forever yours,

Just as your
Heart will be
Forever
Hers, but still I
Hope that when you sleep,
You sometimes
Dream of me and long for
The times that you and I had
Spent together
All I have left to say
Is that

I hope that
She makes you happier than
I did
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna and Prima - Changing
The world around us is ever-changing,
Ever-changing,
Ever-changing,
Ever-changing

The leaves are falling,
The snow melts,
And the sun is saying
Goodnight

The things around us
(Around us)
Are slowly changing

When we take our eyes
Off the bud,
Suddenly the flower
Blooms
When we turn our eyes from the rose,
Suddenly
It has shriveled and died
Candles aren't
Lit to burn forever

You've been standing beside me all this time;
Could you say that I, too, have
Changed?
My eyes had wandered for
No more than a moment,
And suddenly -
So suddenly -
Had you changed

No matter
The change, and
No matter the difference, I will
Always remember that
Season where the -
The leaves were green, and the bud
Of our gentle
Love had first bloomed

Hold out your hand and entrust me with
Your life
I will never let this world
Rob you of your youth

Our autumn
Repeats endless -
The season before you and I changed
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Prima - The Playground
Come, my child -
Come, my child -
It is time to play

A field of flowers,
A field of grass,
This playground built
From the memories
Of my dearly departed

Come, my child -
Come, my child -
It is time to play
(It is time to play)
This dream will be eternal -
Eternal -
Now sleep forever

The devil rises,
Counting the souls one by one
I await his arrival
On the playground built
From the memories of
My beloved
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Die Alone
I never loved anyone like you
And no one ever hurt me like you had
I've nearly drowned in all of your lies
And I can't say I'm sad to watch you go
Oh...

I won't forgive you, not this time
I won't forgive you anymore
Tonight,
You can die alone

Even though you're no longer in my life,
I can still hear your voice in my head -
Lying to me

I won't forgive you, not this time
I won't forgive you anymore
Tonight,
You can die alone

Die alone, buried alive
Die with me, transcend death
Die alone, die alone -
I won't save you this time

I won't forgive you, not this time
I won't forgive you anymore
Tonight,
You can die alone
Track Name: A. Maya feat. Avanna - Amnesia
Do you know me?
Do you remember my name?
I know you've heard my whispers,
But you've yet to see this
Heart that
Beats only for you.

Suffer no more -
I'll take it away.
When you bleed, I'll be
Your tourniquet,
Your last resort.
I will take your pain
So that you may live
With no more trauma.

I will die for you.

Your nightmare will forever be
The ghosts that feed off your past and
Cause you pain.
I hear your screams
And I see your tears.
I fall to pieces.

Your pain is too much to bear;
Allow me to stitch your
Wounds, and if it's too late, please
Allow me to be your
Tourniquet -
Your last resort.

Please believe in me.

Suffer no more -
I'll take it away.
When you bleed, I'll be
Your tourniquet,
Your last resort.
I will take your pain
So that you may live
With no more trauma.

I will die for you.

For you, I will gladly suffer.
I will be anything you need.
You may have lost a
Limb, but you are still alive.
I am your tourniquet,
Your last resort.

Suffer no more -
I'll take it away.
When you bleed, I'll be
Your tourniquet,
Your last resort.
I will bear your pain
So that you may live
With no more trauma.

Do you know me?
Do you know my name?
You don't know me;
I am nothing
But your last breath.